Quietly Doing Okay, & A Punchline

It has been a quiet time, life has mostly just been going on. There is a strange feeling in the air, things are changing.  And in large part I am not prepared to talk about these things because of the parrot, the elephant in the room, and the whale who are in the bar.

It is a situation I have been processing. My evaluation of the situation has been changing. Even today I have changed my mind. For me my head says one thing, and my heart says be true to myself and the values I stand for.

When building this Life 2.0, I had decided in the planning phase that living from the heart was something that was very important to me. The qualities and virtues that I hold dear are heart based, not always necessarily logical for other people. I want to live with being open, vulnerable, and live with the feelings.

In the past I have not lived from the heart, not been vulnerable, and not allowed my heart to over rule cold logic. Back then I was a chameleon, and you saw of me only what I wanted you to see. I had become good at many bad things, and this was made possible by turning off many switches in my head. This included the emotional heart input. This led ultimately to the collapse of Life 1.3.

At the bottom of my barrel I decided that this had to change if I was going to not repeat mistakes, and be true to myself. I had to take the offer of help, and stand in my own truth by coming out, owning my past, and working on making the changes within my thinking, perspectives, reactions, feeling, and developing the qualities that I as a person wished to stand for.

This process or way of living, and it is a way of living not just thinking, has made my 2nd life the strong success it has been so far. There have been lessons, sure, yet what has made it all work is the commitment to the philosophies I hold dear, and living from the heart. Most people when faced with a bad result apply logic to avoid pain or many other things, and I once did. 

Living my way means that you don't try and avoid pain, it is after all all in my head. Like a number of things, emotional pain, stress, fear, etc, come from not aligning your head with your heart, when your viewpoint is out of alignment with the general reality. 

The doubt created by not believing in yourself, that you can cope, handle anything if you need to, is the head trying to take over control by sowing seeds that do not align with how I wish to live. I am capable of anything, and surviving anything. Its a bit like ice and running water. One is tough and has a cold logic, almost defensive. If you hit ice it resists by being hard, yet it can be chipped away at, and you have to keep it cold or it is no longer. Running water is different in that it simply flexes to meet change, to absorb hits. I believe from all I have learned in this life that that is how we are intended to live, like running water. That is how I try to live.

So again after a discussion I gave some thought to a situation, and decided that I will live from my heart. It aligns with me and all I believe. And sometimes that means making tough choices, to think beyond myself, to be vulnerable and willing to sacrifice to do the right thing for others sake. 

This is the situation with the Parrot, the Elephant in the Room, and the Whale in the bar. 

And the logical joke is what did the Parrot and the Elephant in the Room order to drink?

Nothing, the whale was squashing the life out of them.

Or maybe I could change my perspective.

Meantime I have had work, several meetings and chats, played psychologist to a psychologist, work on some upcycling and on finishing my 'memory tree', researching and developing some ideas. I am actively living my life the way I need to, like running water nothing stops me flowing. 

So aroha to you all. The rest of my week is full of events and activities where I engage with the world.

Geogina