Rudeness, Ruts, and Repitition

The next phase of my holiday became a little repetitive, and to be honest I struggled with motivation. I find it easy to get ideas on what I can do, however if I get in a rut the translation of those ideas into actions can be lacking. Sometimes I found the motivation, the case in point is a little jewellery or accessory tree, and then a clothes rack. I was struggling with doing my memory tree, there was lots to do, and it was fiddly.

 

The idea of creating something to hold jewellery or bling suddenly appealed due to its simplicity. I carved a koru shape with the multi-tool, and then before I knew it I had completed it, and it felt great. Then suddenly this idea for a clothes rack happened, and I had a real need for it, a place to hang clothes that had been worn but were not ready for the wash, with some space for shoes and the jewellery tree. I quickly sketched it, then using the drafting table worked angles and dimensions, and suddenly it was in production. And before I knew it, it too was complete. and best of all it works perfectly. Mission accomplished.

This spurred a little bit more work on my memory tree, however I quickly ran out of steam. So, I pulled some pallets apart to get more timber ready for the tree and other projects. I am still perfecting my techniques.

I was also spending time on the Internet trying to meet other woman for friendship. the common thing is to meet at the lake and go for a walk and chat. The result of which has been varying levels of failure. The worst part about the failure is that you don’t know that you have failed until you discover that you are blocked on Facebook. Only one woman has actually bothered to explain why, which was apparently my age. There doesn’t seem to be any woman around my age interested, and the younger ones seem to be stuck on ideals which I find generally unrealistic. Everyone seems to want perfection and won’t settle for less. It also shows the lack of honesty and deceit, and I can give another example of that.

I met a trans woman who was traveling from Auckland around the country. We arranged a meet at had nice cafe for a drink and light meal. She explained that she had made other arrangements with local rainbow woman who had suddenly bailed on her with such lousy excuses as I don’t have time, I am too tired, I have made other commitments.

It goes beyond rude, a lack of manners, and the ability to follow through on commitments. And this fits perfectly with my dishonest and disingenuous experiences. What are we coming to as a society, or perhaps more accurately, what have we become as a society?

As you might imagine, all of this starts to build a negative frame of mind, and a anchor to demotivate you. I am still trying to meet someone or someone’s, it just gets harder to motivate myself when you have the expectation of previous experience.

I have also been spending money on tools, because I still need so many. All the tools of my previous life basically disappeared. I still have a reasonable list of things I need to buy which will set me back more than a few $100. The tools helped me achieve things, speed up processes, and to create better finishes. And then there is the wish list.

So I am careful with what I am purchasing, my budget over this holiday is growing tighter.

I have also purchased a few games, mostly second hand. And at least I am starting to get to play games again, which is one of the few things that seems to be going right, even if on a small scale. I will take the win, it is good progress.

My problem tooth is playing up again, and I say again being an understatement. medication and painkillers are starting to help, however they have not eased it enough. The pain is quite severe, the swelling still significant. I can see more antibiotics coming before they can rip the tooth.

I’ve restarted my work this week at the cafe, which has proven to be a bit of a godsend. It puts some organized focus into my week, and that really helps. It was also very helpful today when I had a bit of a shock reply to a message, and had I not been working I would have stayed home all day just pondering this reply. I will detail this a little soon. Right now, it remains private.

I purchased a new sheet set, 500 TC, which are so nice. It might seem a luxury to some, yet it makes this lady feel special when I get into bed.

I have also been out to dinner by myself. It was a nice meal, great service, and I shall go again. It would be nice for company.

And that basically brings this blog up to date. Yes, there have been many small things I have had to deal with which are not mentioned. I have not wanted to go too deep on things over this time. There will be plenty of that soon.

Aroha to you all,

Geogina