Lets Avoid The Elephant In The Corner Of The Room

 While I talk today to you about what has happened over the last few days, I will do so while ignoring the elephant in the room. The elephant will be very obvious, and right now I am not going to talk about it, or more correctly, her. There is reason for this, so even those who may know something I am just not willing or ready to talk about it. 

Trust me, I am coping fairly well, and it has shown me how much further still I have grown, and this is a positive. There is an emotional soup inside and yet I am processing all the individual ingredients, considering their part in the soup, the texture, the size, the flavour type, etc. There is also another part of the story which is not mine, and I cannot talk about that, even if it is a whale in comparison to the elephant. And the whale has squished the elephant into the corner and is now distressed. And then there is me, somewhere underneath it all.

Okay, thats taken care of. For now. Maybe one day I can joke about the parrot, the elephant, and the whale. Maybe set it in a bar that is dry. Yeah...

As you will know from the last post or my F/B page, I travelled up to Auckland to see my friend E. It was a good trip except for needing to go to the toilet while stuck in very heavy traffic on the motorways of Auckland. A test of bodily control in which I scored a 91% on the test.

E was good, and we played games, talked deep and meaningful stuff, which relates in my part to the situation at the bar above. We tend to really open up and we don't pull our punches. It is direct and honest. The talk is about the stuff that matters, and I have on occasion got emotional.

The flooding in Auckland did not really effect us, E lives on high ground. Apparently near us was not so well off. Even when we went out to dinner at a Korean BBQ. Nice change of dinning.

My trip back the next morning, Saturday the 28th, I also missed the worst of the weather, only minor surface flooding. A good drive. My gaming group met an hour after getting home.

And that is all I can say, as I find myself in a bar.

Today is Sunday, and I have to say it is very crowded in this bar, the whale invited company, or it grew. There is pain all around, it is a tragedy in slow motion as I step back in this moment of calm I have found. It is an out of body experience, a bit like watching life through an advanced CAD program, and I can rotate the scene around, zoom in and out, and wind construction back and forth. 

I suppose this is one of my superpowers. I can see things from all sides, look at details or the wider scene. Right now I am unsure if it helps the situation, though it helps me understand why. And being the only animal at the bar that understands is not helping right now. 

Part of my coping at the moment is through music, it is also part of my communication. I am listening to Rammstein, the German industrial metal band. I have used Du Hast to communicate, and Engel. Then there is Adieu, and Deutschland. Some people will just hear noise, or be shocked. I have included some links if you are interested. I suggest an English translation of the lyrics to get the deeper meaning.

Du Hast - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5HAEzEk8QM

Engel - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eSaa3vC_n2k  or https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRxW5Vzeo0A

Deutschland - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NeQM1c-XCDc  and a docco at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sc-euVL8xQs

Adieu - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=skl6N3zGv-s

I have just told E that I may not talk about all this in sharing, and that will include other people to.

Aroha to you all, look out for each other, and may truth and kindness guide you.

Geogina